You are living a life you once prayed for.
Many moons ago & what feels like lifetimes - Saturday was a Waitering day. These were the “rent paying” work days & ones you would gear up for. It was a rush, a “high” you cant fully articulate… unless you’ve lived it. There is nothing quite like a Saturday evening 6:30pm rush in the industry. If you know, you know.
One thing I will never forget, is that around 2:45, every single Saturday, when all the prep was complete, we would start to fold napkins as a team & wait for the restaurant to open. I would be ready: tea steeping & my dinner salad waiting for me in the walk-in. I would smile, slightly. Grateful… but sad. I was very good at my job - but I yearned for something different.
So I would start to daydream of the day when I wouldn’t be standing there. Daydream of the Saturdays when my mission work was a thriving business & I didn’t have to moonlight to sustain me. I dreamed of time freedom & what weekends would look like… when not on the “crew of life”.
I would daydream of traffic jams & lines at the grocery store (I’m not kidding). I would daydream about crowds at the mall & heading into the city to a crowded caffe to sit with the hustle & bustle of the general pop. I would yearn for this, actively get excited about it. Focus on it vividly… while folding napkin after napkin after napkin.
Knowing that this life would come with its trials & tribulations. Knowing that running your own business takes gumption & daily dedication… like nothing I’ve ever known before. Knowing that I would have to leave a lot behind, set up a foundation from a “square one” I didn’t fully know how bare bones it would get to.
But knowing I could do it, knowing that at the right moment… the right “time” it would click & it would happen!
Nowadays… my weekends are filled with just that: crowded grocery stores & caffes of my personal delight. Lines (lines, lines, lines!) wherever I go & me with the smile as wide as a Who, waiting patiently, wherever I just happen to be.
With evenings curled up with a PennyPress Puzzle Book & Sibyl as close as she’ll allow me to get to her. Quietly turning in with or before the sun quiets herself down. My business is still growing & has a long way to go to get to its final destination. But today, THIS moment - is an answered prayer.
It’s not always the glamours wins that find you, but the quiet ones. The simple ones that maybe you prayed for… day in & day out… for a very long time.
So today, I ask you, what did YOU pray for? What past version of yourself wished for the life you have right now? How are you - in this moment - living the life of your dreams?
I love you dearly.
As always,
SARAH