What I Learned From Falling Down The Stairs.
2 July, 2026. It has been exactly one week since I fell from the top of the stairs to the bottom of the stairs… mostly on my tailbone & putting a halt to many a things in my life for a time…
I couldn’t drive, sit, walk quickly, exercise, play the piano, get on a canvas, sit in my caffè chair for videos (so record my normal content) among many other things.
What I COULD do: I could pray, journal, channel, be with Sibyl, rest, rest, rest, rest & rest some more. There are many lessons still overflowing from this experience as I am not yet fully through the buttonhole of this incredible moment, but I wanted to share some of the most powerful ones with you here & now. How we label something seemingly “embarrassing” or difficult, painful, a setback, etc. matters more than we could ever imagine. This moment has taught me so much. Let’s explore my lessons.
I was DOING more than I was BEING.
This was message No. 1 from the God of my understanding since I began the violent journaling that has been pouring out of me since ‘the fall’. I was DOING all the activities that aligned me with my ideal future… but I wasn’t spending enough time simply being. I was reading & absorbing & learning & sharing… but I wasn’t receiving as much as I was meant to. I wasn’t simply sitting WITH God & writing the words He was speaking to me. Rest is now integral, absolutely built in & on a much deeper level or importance. Not simply to heal the body but to spend the time in quiet contemplation… open to the channels of God.
So. Much. Whimsey!
I finally took the time to do a 1000 piece puzzle! This was a big deal! 750 had been my glass ceiling. It is now shattered. I have also been cooking again with a bit more of my creativity built in. I roasted sweet potatoes with cinnamon, nutmeg & some dark cherries. I just felt the vibe & then cooked the vibe & it was a VIBE. It needed a galette, for sure or a soft cheese to go with it. But I made it. I’ll write out the “recipe” here:
Cinnamon Cherry Sweet Potatoes.
1x large sweet potato - diced to your favorite size.
EVOO
A generous serving of cinnamon.
A less generous serving of nutmeg.
Salt.
Frozen (or fresh) dark sweet cherries.
Roast up to your liking. I did 405°F for 22 minutes, then added the frozen cherries, mixed it all up & cooked for another 17 minutes.
It was divine! But it feels like it needed a crusty bread or a galette… it wanted to be in a galette! I might try a galette sometimes soon. Enjoy! If you do decide to make something fun with it… please let me know how it goes!
Letting things go can actually save you a lot of trouble.
When I fell, the things I was holding in my hands I didn’t drop. I don’t know why I didn’t drop them. Waiter hands, maybe… but it felt (in hindsight) very strange that I didn’t drop anything. If I HAD… I might have been able to catch myself before falling the full flight of stairs. It could have helped me actually not get as hurt.
Sometimes… just let it all fall down. Drop it… like just literally just drop it. Put it down & let it all fall. It could have helped. Who knows! Or maybe this was the lesson that I needed to learn by grasping… funny how things work like that.
Your Mindset Matters.
My first & only thoughts throughout this process have been filtered through the lens of deep & all encompassing gratitude. I couldn’t be more grateful for this experience. It couldn’t have gone better, truly (video on this linked below) & everything is working out best case scenario. The clarity of focus & my unwavering faith have been monumental. What I’m learning is this: taking that unwavering faith to other areas of my life. The areas that I’ve struggled with in the past. Focusing it there & looking at any old story that says that God & I cannot heal this. Weeding that inner garden… for sure.
Treat the problem while equally ignoring the problem.
There was never a timeline where I didn’t heal efficiently, that is without question. But every day I treated the problem with the tools I had: rest, icing regularly throughout the day, light & gentle movements, walks, drinking clean water, hands on energy work, meditations, prayer, etc. but my mindset was on healthy movements: long walks with Sib in the pack, driving in my own car… windows down, music on, moving & evolving. There was never a timeline where that didn’t happen… but that didn’t mean I wasn’t icing & resting the whole time. What you “do” in your mind… your body feels & taps into. Your body cannot tell the difference.
Your Personal Truth Matters.
In my perspective: what you believe: IS. What you state after “I AM”… simply IS. So be very wary as to how you speak to yourself. The only words I told my body were loving & generous. They’ve been kind & uplifting while also gentle. Saying to my body, after a painful spasm: “I’ve got you. I’ve got you” is a new level of self trust, care & love that we are building together (my consciousness & my body). It has been such a personal love story.
When YOU decide how you feel & what you think: own it. Be so in love with it & swan dive into it. IF, as you read these words, you’re realizing that you don’t want to metaphorically “swan dive” into your personal belief systems: take some time to change that. You are the only one at the helm, my dear. No matter how far off course you feel… you can always find your way home.
Redirection is Gods Protection | Focus on where/what God is highlighting.
I was absolutely being protected from something, prevented from going somewhere & was guided inward. With the entire injury concentrated at my Root Chakra… maybe look there, Sarah! Maybe focus on healing that area & letting go of what does not serve you anymore. I was able to work with the Full Moon in Capricorn during this week as well as Mercury went Rx in the middle of it as well. The old story dies, writing the new one is the focus.
We are ALL so protected & loved. We ALL have an entire spirit team of souls that are solely here for us. I was able to sit with some of them, God brought in a new one for this season of life & I can communicate more clearly with them all right now. No rushing, simply being with them. My entire morning routine is changing because of this. Thank God for the Mercury Rx… I can let the days rearrange themselves to find something as I heal that works for me now.
Ohh… Community.
What an outpouring of love I have received over the past week! From friends & family & this lovely Caffè community… my heart was lifted by the love I have received. Thank you all so much! For the help I have received. For your prayers & kind words… all of it. We cannot do any of this alone. We’re not meant to!
Community when we’re thriving = INCREDIBLE.
Community when we’re knocked down a bit = priceless.
Thank you all for reaching out & for your love & kind words & wishes. My heart overflows with gratitude.
Celebrate the little wins!
This morning, I walked to the bottom of the hill, said hello to the river & walked back up it again. This was such a HUGE win! Weeks ago… this was baseline. Days ago… unheard of. Even the first time I was able to walk down the stairs with no pain… I celebrated! When I was able to lay down on my back without pain… I celebrated! We can forget, in the midst of our personal Hero’s Journey or Rocky Montage to actually stop & celebrate the little or big wins. We attach SO MUCH dopamine, ego, energy & meaning TO the big end result that we forget to feel the feelings along the way.
Since today is the only day we are actually promised… why not celebrate along the way? What would be the harm of stopping to list all the things you love about yourself right here & right now? Why do we attach so much of our worth to our output, accomplishments, & perceived “big wins”? What if we are worthy of celebration right here & right now?!
I feel like I’m reading my own writings & teachings as I type this & am so grateful to walk my own talk. To be able to utilize my own resources & tools has been incredible. When I first stepped into the world of holding space for others professionally I always said: “be your first client, Sarah.” Using the tools - walking the talk - using the programs. Don’t simply preach this but embody it fully! What kind of a leader would I be if I let my mindset & all the momentum I’ve built simply GO just by viewing such a powerful breakthrough as a negativism? I wouldn’t be doing any good to the world or to you.
Just because I CAN doesn’t mean I am meant to.
I could try to drive, I could have gone to that festival event, I could have pushed it… but at what cost? What seems very clear to me now is: waiting for the resounding (resounding) yes! The full body yes, the “full steam ahead” yes. It might start off softly, it might come in a guided meditation (mine sure did! The Guided Meditation I used is linked below… it has buckled me many times over). But simply waiting for the BIG YES instead of trying to squeeze one out… no more for me.
Anything you do for yourself, you’re doing for the entire Human Collective.
This was the first big healing crisis I’ve had that immediately after it happened… I swan dove into rest & didn’t fight it one bit. In past seasons of Sarah, I’ve gone immediately back to work. Twisted my foot (twice): right back to work. Broke two toes: immediately back to work (just wore slippers). Even when my eyes clouded over I tried to work. This time… not a chance! When God speaks so clearly… I’m listening.
Health is a top priority: Physical Health. Mental Health & Self Love.
I am so grateful for my healthy, healing body! To live in a body that was able to withstand what could have been so much worse… is a massive blessing. The chatter of “I wish this looked different, I need to change this, etc.” has silenced completely. The amount of self love I have simply been pouring into my body for holding me, for housing my soul & consciousness… immense. What a miracle!
Moving forward: leading with love in all areas of exercise, eating, mental health & all is baseline. If I’m not acting with love for my body… it’s a no for me. This does mean pushing myself when I need to! Love is encouraging & love stretches the boundaries of what we THINK we can do. So it’s not about being lazy, it’s about being loving.
Walking with a sway means you’re healing, Sarah.
When I was able to walk for the first time with a little sway in my hips… I knew I was at the dawn of a new day. Truly, when you begin to dance & move & feel sexy & love yourself with movement: you’re on the other side of “the hump” of a healing crisis… for sure! I knew it was going to be a good day when I was walking home from the Library yesterday & there was good movement in my hips. Walking home with a big new book you ordered & the time to read it… ohhhh!! Please try that on. It’s a grand feeling.
My movements had been so stunted, a bit fearful, for the past week & these light, gentle sways… felt divine. I felt like such a woman. It felt amazing.
It’s okay to let the world turn for a while & focus on my own little self.
I feel so blessed to have been able to prerecord content, to work from home & to have such a supportive community around me for this season. What I realized was this: my scrolling stopped. I had no desires to see what was going on outside of my own little world. I sat & prayed, I did guided meditations, I offered myself hands on healing energy, I cooked something new or did that puzzle. I poured into myself, for the first time (fully) in I don’t even know how long. It was such a gift to receive.
Try not to wait for a healing crisis or a planned holiday to let the world simply world. It will be there, I promise, when you come back & will be a better place with you showing up full within it.
There are so many more lessons that I am still learning & that are pouring out of me that will find their way to my content in their perfect time. For now, I am so grateful to be here with you, across time & space. Please be kind to yourself. If this found you during a healing crisis & you’re feeling a bit low… I hope this can be uplifting for you. I hope that you know that there is someone out there (me) sitting with you in this time & supporting you along the way.
Thank you for being alive! See you again soon, my dear. Take care.